Everyone we know has flaws, and this is just one of mine. Throughout most of my teen years and adult life so far, I have given in to this terrible habit I have just about every day. I hide my true feelings. I say "hide" and not lie, because the reason for it is to keep from hurting someone. I have always been a protector, and I'm sure that won't change. What caused me to do this? Was there a specific instance which made me say to myself, "I can never tell people how I really feel again"? The answer is simply no, but lately, I've realized it's not okay to hide what I feel anymore. I'm finally getting to the point in my life where I'm worrying less about what other people think and more about what I think. With that said, I'm not writing this so much for entertainment, as much as I am to help myself get my true feelings out there. It has usually been easier for me to write them rather than say them, so I will do that for now, even though I hope to change that in the future. Feel free to give me feedback, but I'm really just doing this for myself. It's not my goal to start controversies, I don't expect sympathy, and most of all, I don't want to hurt anyone. But it's time to stop hurting myself.
Do you hide your feelings from the world? Tell me about it.
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